Between Us

To all who may have been logging in to check on me for any updates, please forgive me for a delay.  As I'm sure you can understand, I needed some time away...and I'm sure you appreciate not receiving any depressing updates as well. 

Anyway, I was going to post this as a short hello, but I suppose it wouldn't be too short and well, the page isn't working for updates at the moment.  So, without further adue...(sp?)

Will is no longer pursuing the Army...or should I say - they are no longer pursuing him.  Kind of hugely bittersweet as their reason for declining is STUPID....sorry, but that's all there is to say about that!  Not sure what his next step is going to be, but I pray that God is totally guiding his steps and writing new dreams in his heart. 

Alyssa and I have been participating in Girls on the Run.  I am coaching a group of 9 girls, including Alyssa, twice a week from September through December in life lessons that apply to girls and growing up, along with training them to be able to complete in a 5K race--3.1miles.  They are an outstanding group of girls and I am loving every moment.  (well, getting up early and rearranging my schedule has proven to be quite tiring, but worth it.)

I am currently enrolled and completing my VERY LAST CLASS!!!!! Praise Jesus....it is by His strength that I will make it through. Physiological (Biological) Psychology is the class and well, not necessarily something I want to learn, but it has to be done.  December 20th is the last day of class and can't come soon enough!!!  The commencement ceremony won't be until the spring, but truth be told, I just want the paper and a celebration party at home.  (My school is in Virginia and well, that's quite far away and not sure who'd be able to be there with me.) 

As for me....compared to previous months, this month is the first time that I can say honestly that healing has been taking place.  God is good and has carried me through some very tough, dark, and difficult moments.  I am forever grateful for a dear friend who encouraged me to not just seek counseling, but to seek a divinely set prayer appt with Christian Healing Ministries.  I have released control over my future - lol...well, at least for now - and feel so much better knowing that God is in control, whether I let him be or not.  Staying busy has helped, between work, school, Girls, and home....all of it has helped.

My precious baby girl, Alyssa, has officially turned 9 YRS OLD.....not sure when she started to grow up, but wow.... She's such a beautiful girl and has a wonderful heart.  Now, if only we can get control over those already wacky emotions, we'll be on our way.  PLEASE PRAY FOR ME and WILL...Patience, we need patience. 

I realized that i have lots of pictures that I haven't posted lately so look for some soon! 

I leave you all with the lyrics to a song that has touched my heart in so many ways.  It's "He is with you," by Mandisa.....

There's a time to live

And a time to die

There's a time to laugh

And a time to cry

There's a time for war

And a time for peace

There's a hand to hold

In the worst of these

He is with you when your faith is dead

And you can't even get out of bed

Or your husband doesn't kiss you anymore

He is with you when your baby's gone

And your house is still,

And your hearts a stone

Cryin' God, what'd You do that for

He is with you

There's a time for yes

And a time for no

There's a time to be angry

And a time to let it go

There is a time to run

And a time to face it

There is love to see you

Through all of this

He is with you in the conference room

When the world is coming down on you

And your wife and kids don't know you anymore

He is with you in the ICU

When the doctors don't know what to do

And it scares you to the core

He is with you

We may weep for a time

But joy will come in the morning

The morning light

He is with you when your kids are grown

When there's too much space

And you feel alone

And you're worried if you

got it right or wrong

Yes He is with you

when you've given up on ever finding your true love

Someone who feels like home

He is with you

When nothing else is left

And you take your final breath

He is with you

I am thankful everyday for so many people who have held my hand, wiped my tears, answered my call and texts for help, and generally gave me a reason to smile through it all.  But mostly, I am so thankful for the Faith that has carried me through in the Strength of the God who is the only one who can truly heal me.  I don't know how anyone without faith in God can walk through some of the hardest trials in life and still be standing.